The sickness I felt inside me, like Jeremia, about 1985, was likely what he many years later spoke about as a sore abcess, at a meeting in Filadelfia on 27.11.2022:
Inge spoke in tongues from the pulpit, then Jarle came with a message, it was likely the translation of the speech in tongues, (I was slow to start the video, so I didn’t get the beginning):
« ….. but still lies there like a sore abscess in your life. Know my child, you are not lost in any way, says the Lord, you are my child and I will help you on the way, says the Lord. Just stay safe, when you stick to me, you will see, I will help you on your journey, says the Lord. I have said it many times before, I am not walking behind you, my child, I am walking before you. And know … in front of you and I know what you are going to face in everyday life, says the Lord, I will be with you. I have said it so many times, know my child, where you go, I go. I walk by your side, I walk by your walk. And I am not far away from any of you, says the Lord, but my child, you who are struggling with things in your life, turn to me again. Do not give up. If you have asked me a thousand times to take away this thing that you know is so difficult, then you know, one day there was one in a way that you had not thought of in your own life. And you have thought out ideas of how to solve this. But know, trust me says the Lord, I am gentle and patient. I take you on the altar again and again and I do not stand there with any scourge, says the Lord, I will not beat you my child, for I love you. I want you to turn, you will give yourself 100% of your life to me and you will see, when you do, you walk safely through the day. You will not go with any accusation, because I love you, my child, I will help you on the way. Amen.”
Yes, the matter was that since I was a boy I had asked Jesus to give me a saved woman for my girlfriend and wife and He has answered me that He is the one who takes care of my case, so I will come to Him with it and surrender myself completely to Him.
He said that he would descend and fertilize my faith and my love from him (10.5.2009) and then I thought of Real and Virtually, the one he would give me as a wife and then I thought of my loved ones. I imagine that he will descend and meet Virtually, where he laid her, in my heart and thus heal this abscess. Paul spoke of the thorn in the flesh and I imagine that for me it has become the cause of an abscess. Because in this social context I am rejected, so that I do not get to acknowledge to them what Christ is to me and to us. Then it is as if they demand that I try to do God’s work and finish what he started, but I can’t. In this sense, I should be weak and bet that God’s grace is enough for me.
They despise my childhood faith as if it were wrong, so they contradict and thus say the opposite of what I have been asking for, since I was a boy, Their strategy is to deceive and seduce the woman, as in the case of the Fall, and then use her to lure the man with.
2 Corinthians 12:1 I must go on boasting. Though there is nothing to be gained by it, I will go on to visions and revelations of the Lord.
2 I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven—whether in the body or out of the body I do not know, God knows.
3 And I know that this man was caught up into paradise—whether in the body or out of the body I do not know, God knows—
4 and he heard things that cannot be told, which man may not utter.
5 On behalf of this man I will boast, but on my own behalf I will not boast, except of my weaknesses—
6 though if I should wish to boast, I would not be a fool, for I would be speaking the truth; but I refrain from it, so that no one may think more of me than he sees in me or hears from me.
7 So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited.
8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me.
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ”Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
I will look at him who is author and perfector of our faith, he met her in my heart and I expect that he will still meet her like this.
Heb.12, 1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,
2 looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Do Not Grow Weary
3 Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.
4 In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.
5 And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons? “My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord, nor be weary when reproved by him.
6 For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and chastises every son whom he receives. ”
7 It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline?
8 If you are left without discipline, in which all have participated, then you are illegitimate children and not sons.
9 Besides this, we have had earthly fathers who disciplined us and we respected them. Shall we not much more be subject to the Father of spirits and live?
10 For they disciplined us for a short time as it seemed best to them, but he disciplines us for our good, that we may share his holiness.
11 For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.
Mount Zion has been lifted up, so it is the meeting place.
Heb.12: 22 But you have come to Mount Zion and to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to innumerable angels in festal gathering,
23 and to the assembly of the firstborn who are enrolled in heaven, and to God, the judge of all, and to the spirits of the righteous made perfect,
24 and to Jesus, the mediator of a new covenant, and to the sprinkled blood that speaks a better word than the blood of Abel.
Romans 12:1 I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.
2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
